Zoe is 11 months old today!

It has been an interesting past couple of days.

Something happened yesterday that I seriously thought never would happen. Zoe fell off my bed and landed head first. She is fine. Needless to say I'm still freaked out. I feel so horrible. Actually, horrible isn't even a good word for it. There isn't a good word for how I feel.

This is what happened: The floor in our bedroom is a mess and has sharp hooks on it from us hanging things up on the walls. I didn't want to put Zoe on the floor. So I put her on the bed. I was about to go running so I went into the bathroom to get a hair clip (why didn't I just put her on the bathroom floor?!?!) and the next thing I knew I heard a noise and I turned around to see Zoe landing upside down on her head. I ran over and picked her up and she started screaming (I found out later that it was a good thing that she starting crying right away). My first instinct was to throw her in the car and rush to the emergency room. But then I decided to call the doctor first. So I called the doc. and told the receptionist, "My daughter just fell off my bed, I need to know what to do!". She quickly transferred me to the triage nurse and I had to leave a message!!! It's one of those things where they'll call you back by priority. I'm sure they could tell I was freaking out by my voice.

While I was waiting for a nurse to call me back I found a flashlight and did the light test thing into Zoe's eyes to see if they were dilating correctly. Everything seemed normal. I also called my mom. She helped calm me down a bit...but not really...worry and guilt don't go away so easily. Anyways, a nurse called back and asked questions about exactly what happened and how Zoe was doing and I told her she was acting fine and I couldn't see or feel any bumps or damage. In fact, she wasn't even crying any more by the time I had left the message for them. The nurse gave me some things to watch out for such as vomiting and dizziness and said that Zoe was probably fine. I asked if I could bring Zoe in anyways even though she was acting fine because I wanted to get her weight checked too (she has been on Periactin for a month and I wanted to see if it is working).

So...I took Zoe in and saw a new doctor in the practice who has an interest in Endocrinology (this is at the same practice that saw Zoe when she was born and I took her there a couple weeks ago for her ear ache). She was great. She totally checked Zoe's skull, face, neck, back, shoulders, ears, eyes, heart, breathing, and watched Zoe move around. She said that Zoe is fine. I just keep wanting to cry thinking about it. Zoe is SO acting fine though. I think it mainly just scared her. The doc said that the fact that Zoe still has a big soft spot is good because it's more cushion. Whatever. Still doesn't make me feel better.

Okay, here's good news. Zoe weighs 13lbs 15oz (though she has gained weight the increase over the month isn't anything significant), is 26.25" tall (this is 1.25" more than last month--a BIG improvement...YESSSS!), and her head circumference is 46cm (this is the same as last month and is the first time her head hasn't grown any). So, I think the Periactin is working. As I mentioned in my last post, Zoe eats ALL the time now. I love the fact that I keep having to make extra runs to the store to get more food for her because she keeps eating it all! Yesssssss.

Also, when I told the doc about the RSS she was like, "Oh yeah, we have two other patients here with that. Here's what I want you to do: here's a list of the Endocrinologists in the area that I like (one of them is the Endo that I already have an appointment to see in June), I want you to take Zoe to a Geneticist again so that you can have one here and also it'll be good to get another opinion, and I want you to take her to see a Gastroenterologist, and work with the Gastroenterologist about seeing a Nutritionist who will help you figure out ways to help even more with Zoe's feedings." And she gave me all these names of all the specialists. I was like, "Yes!". This is what I need. She knows what she's doing and is taking control.

I have spent the past two weeks researching the area's Endocrinologists and calling our insurance to see who is covered and calling the Endo's offices trying to figure out who has the most RSS experience and trying to get Zoe in sooner than they supposedly have their first opening (at the end of June!), etc. Now I have the Pediatrician to help me get Zoe in to see these people. It's comforting.

So, yesterday was a bad-good day. Mostly bad because right now I think I'm a horrible mother. The fall was a very humbling experience for me because I really, really did not think I could let something like that happen.

Okay, and then last night was an exhausting night. We had a MAJOR thunderstorm. It's really not that big of a deal because I'm used to them. But all evening the forecasts were showing the possibility of tornadoes. So when the storm woke me up at 3:45 this morning I turned the news on to see what the warnings/watches were and the meteorologist was in the middle of saying that the clouds looked like they might form a tornado in Farmer's Branch (that's just west of us) and then the electricity went out! Aaahhh, scary! I decided to go sleep on the couch so I could hear Zoe if she woke up since her monitor couldn't work (she is on the main floor and our bedroom is on the second floor). When I went in to check on her she was awake, holding her bunny so tight, and looking at me with a "Whoa, what's going on?" look on her face. So cute. When I tried to pretend that she hadn't seen me and sneak out the room she started to cry so I got her up and fed her. Well, then she was wide awake. The thunder was so loud and the lightning kept making cool flashes. Anyways, the point of all this is that Zoe never went back to sleep so her whole day was thrown off. The electricity was out for about 2 hours, all the while we (I) tried to go back to sleep. But Zoe had other plans which included talking as loud as she could and rolling back and forth, back and forth on the bed. And when she would roll towards me she would look at me and laugh. Okay, so the fact that I started laughing back probably didn't help.

Did I mention that Mike has been out of town and missed all of this?!

He was supposed to come home late tonight but was flying American Airlines and his flight got cancelled. But it actually turned out to be a good thing because he was able to catch a much earlier flight home. Yeah! I'm so glad he is home and I have never seen Zoe so excited to see him. This afternoon was a lot of fun.

Okay, so what's new about Zoe that I haven't mentioned yet? She says "mum-mum" (mommy), "da-da", and "uh-oh". The "uh-oh" is so fun. She says it any time she or I drop something.

Oh yeah, and it's funny that a couple of you have mentioned that you like Zoe's hair down because 1) Mike's dad has been saying the same thing and 2) Just this week we have been talking about not doing the pig tails anymore because Zoe keeps taking the rubber bands out and eating them.

Wow, this has been a really long post. And I'm sorry to say that I don't have any new pictures to share. I do have some fun videos though, I'll get some of those posted tomorrow.

In unrelated matters, did any of you see the opening of Idol Gives Back last night? The number where the So You Think You Can Dance dancers performed with the Idol singers? AWWEEESSSSOOOOOMMMMMMEEEEEEE.